I can explain

The page i wrote yesterday is because I was letting out steam. I am angry because this person I know is having bad luck. Depression, insomia, unable to buy the bike she saw, paying the repair of her 80s car and so on.

I wish I can help, but how? I am from abroad and there's nothing I can do. I wish things would have gotten better and she can concentrate on the long story. But I am feeling lonely thats all. I wish I have the strengh to talk to her instead of feeling sad and down. Me and my stupid reply.

I cannot ask her to forgive cos I ask her this many times. I forgave ger too. I am not gonna say this thing about me forgiving her. Its personal. I don't wanna say it cos it brings back hurtful memories and I can't take the blow again. But I heard she was in a bad mood, how am I gonna talk to her in this way?

I wish I could go there and cheer her up. But when? I am finishing college until next year on January. I don't know what to say. I don't know whether I have the chance. Also deathyena spoke to me hours ago. I think I should talk to her until this person comes back. She was nice to me, but why become this attitude? I just wanna have a chat, nothing else. Me and my stupidity.